Ha! You know how I know God loves me? First thing I see on biblegateway.com when I go there:
“He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”- Micah 6:8
Isn't God just amazing?
He also has a wicked sense of humor... I'll have to tell you some of the things that He's done to make me laugh. :) God is truly splendid.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Waiting on the World To Change
Praise God from Whom all blessings flow!
Praise Him all creatures here below.
Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts.
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!
Amen.
There's so much heartache out there. I've had my fair share of it, and I just got off the phone with an old friend who is going through his own time with pain. Now I'm not talking about relationships and teen drama and going steady... silly things like those. :) No, those can certainly be part of it, but I mean an overall sense of sorrow, a pain drilling itself through your essence, making it seem as if the sun will never shine again.
Many things are the cause for this sorrow; the agony, repression, and blatant hatred felt by those subjugated to deplorable conditions in places like Darfur and Burma. A starving child on the street (anyone on the street for that matter), not knowing how you'll pay for rent, the loss of a loved one, the crimes of the world... there are so many things out there that cause such pain and destruction and devastation.
Why do we seek such things? I mean, granted, things like losing a family member or friend to cancer doesn't happen on purpose, but the others... they're caused by human beings. BY PEOPLE. Why? And how is it that some people can't look out on these things and not have their hearts break? How can people look out there and think 'Well at least it's not me'?
Sometimes, I just don't know how to carry on; other people's sorrows seem to weigh me down as well, added on to my own. There's so much suffering out there, and here am I, sitting at my computer typing about how bad I feel because of it.
Doing nothing.
How can we stop this? I know that it will never be stopped completely... the world will not be perfect until Christ is back and who knows when that will be (though that's the point, really). I mean, until that time we're called to be the 'surrogate-Christs' for people. Such a daunting thing, really. I'm having a hard enough time growing in Christ for myself, let alone for others. And that's just it, isn't it? The first step that I have to (and started taking, about a year ago), is living my faith not for myself, but for Christ. You see, He looked to help others first and did it out of His love for His creation. Now I'm no creator, but I am a servant to He That Creates, Who wants me to do as He did.
Still doing nothing.
So I'm failing again, adding more to the sorrow, though my sorrow is gone because of the joy of Christ. Sure, I can get sad, but the joy of the Lord is my strength! I just wish that others could see that. And there, more failure; they don't see it because I'm not showing it.
Great. More nothing.
I can't do it anymore. I can't just sit back and let people suffer when I have such great joy. It's not even that I have the joy; it's that the joy has been given to me.
It all seems to click, doesn't it? At least for me.
Praise God, because He has been showing me so much in the last few years of my life. This blog is not something that's really new, but more of an affirmation of what Christ has shown me last year. This year is about applying it.
My heart aches for my friend, and for many other friends who are paining just as much. It's my personality to want to fix things, but I cannot. God can.
Please, I doubt that anyone reads this, but if you do, and if you are a follower of Christ, I beg of you,
Follow Him with all of your heart, with all earnesty, and with all hope and joy. Keep me to this as well. Pray for those out there who don't know Him, and even those who do, because their sorrow is from His absence.
This has been a long blog, but it's helped me.
Praise Him all creatures here below.
Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts.
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!
Amen.
There's so much heartache out there. I've had my fair share of it, and I just got off the phone with an old friend who is going through his own time with pain. Now I'm not talking about relationships and teen drama and going steady... silly things like those. :) No, those can certainly be part of it, but I mean an overall sense of sorrow, a pain drilling itself through your essence, making it seem as if the sun will never shine again.
Many things are the cause for this sorrow; the agony, repression, and blatant hatred felt by those subjugated to deplorable conditions in places like Darfur and Burma. A starving child on the street (anyone on the street for that matter), not knowing how you'll pay for rent, the loss of a loved one, the crimes of the world... there are so many things out there that cause such pain and destruction and devastation.
Why do we seek such things? I mean, granted, things like losing a family member or friend to cancer doesn't happen on purpose, but the others... they're caused by human beings. BY PEOPLE. Why? And how is it that some people can't look out on these things and not have their hearts break? How can people look out there and think 'Well at least it's not me'?
Sometimes, I just don't know how to carry on; other people's sorrows seem to weigh me down as well, added on to my own. There's so much suffering out there, and here am I, sitting at my computer typing about how bad I feel because of it.
Doing nothing.
How can we stop this? I know that it will never be stopped completely... the world will not be perfect until Christ is back and who knows when that will be (though that's the point, really). I mean, until that time we're called to be the 'surrogate-Christs' for people. Such a daunting thing, really. I'm having a hard enough time growing in Christ for myself, let alone for others. And that's just it, isn't it? The first step that I have to (and started taking, about a year ago), is living my faith not for myself, but for Christ. You see, He looked to help others first and did it out of His love for His creation. Now I'm no creator, but I am a servant to He That Creates, Who wants me to do as He did.
Still doing nothing.
So I'm failing again, adding more to the sorrow, though my sorrow is gone because of the joy of Christ. Sure, I can get sad, but the joy of the Lord is my strength! I just wish that others could see that. And there, more failure; they don't see it because I'm not showing it.
Great. More nothing.
I can't do it anymore. I can't just sit back and let people suffer when I have such great joy. It's not even that I have the joy; it's that the joy has been given to me.
It all seems to click, doesn't it? At least for me.
Praise God, because He has been showing me so much in the last few years of my life. This blog is not something that's really new, but more of an affirmation of what Christ has shown me last year. This year is about applying it.
My heart aches for my friend, and for many other friends who are paining just as much. It's my personality to want to fix things, but I cannot. God can.
Please, I doubt that anyone reads this, but if you do, and if you are a follower of Christ, I beg of you,
Follow Him with all of your heart, with all earnesty, and with all hope and joy. Keep me to this as well. Pray for those out there who don't know Him, and even those who do, because their sorrow is from His absence.
This has been a long blog, but it's helped me.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
This is my week off!
Mama who bore me.
Mama who gave me
No way to handle things.
Who made me so sad.
Mama, the weeping.
Mama, the angels.
No sleep in Heaven or Bethlehem.
Some pray that, one day, Christ will come a'-callin'.
They light a candle, and hope that it glows.
And some just lie there, crying for him to come and find them.
But when he comes, they don't know how to go...
Mama who bore me.
Mama who gave me
No way to handle things.
Who made me so bad.
Mama, the weeping.
Mama, the angels.
No sleep in Heaven or Bethlehem.
So I can't say in words how relieving this week is gonna be! Though I do love the OA job, it takes a lot of energy out of you, and a week off will really restore our energy. Par of me wishes that I could have gone on the Restaurant with the majority of the other OAs, but really, I'm glad that am staying here in Austin. I'll get to reconnect with everyone who I haven't seen in a while, and that's really exciting! Also, my last minute business that I need to finish can be taken care of this week! Yay for finally having time to do stuff!
The song above is from the musical known as 'Spring Awakening. Just FYI, everyone should go and listen to/ watch the performance from the Tony's on youtube. It's freaking awesome, if a little vulgar. Ok, really vulgar. However, it still rocked my face off. Holla!
I need to start making my goals for the fall semester, and so a few of them are going to be listed below:
1. Make a 4.0. I wanted this last semester, and that totally didn't happen. I really need to raise my average, so that I can do my double major in American Studies.
2. I need to see about which groups that I'm going to continue with, and which ones I'm going to retire from. I already have decided a few of them, and I need to cut some of the others down some more. Though I love being involved, it takes a HUGE toll on my GPA. I pulled everything off, but it wasn't easy, and I was very stressed the entire semester.
3. I have American Idol auditions in Dallas on August 6th. I need to be prepared for those. And I need to win them and go to Hollywood. That's a major goal. If anyone has any ideas about which song I should sing, please let me know!!!!
4. I need to have fun, and really enjoy my new roommates, and live life to the fullest!!!
5. Quit analyzing everything with SJ... though that probably shouldn't happen... It just takes away a lot of the joy of movies. However, I REALLY believe in the principles of it, and I am glad that I got involved in the program. Hopefully, I can get rehired again... hint hint to any supervisors who may try to read my blog! :)
I'm really tired and so I'm going to finish writing. So g'night!
Mama who gave me
No way to handle things.
Who made me so sad.
Mama, the weeping.
Mama, the angels.
No sleep in Heaven or Bethlehem.
Some pray that, one day, Christ will come a'-callin'.
They light a candle, and hope that it glows.
And some just lie there, crying for him to come and find them.
But when he comes, they don't know how to go...
Mama who bore me.
Mama who gave me
No way to handle things.
Who made me so bad.
Mama, the weeping.
Mama, the angels.
No sleep in Heaven or Bethlehem.
So I can't say in words how relieving this week is gonna be! Though I do love the OA job, it takes a lot of energy out of you, and a week off will really restore our energy. Par of me wishes that I could have gone on the Restaurant with the majority of the other OAs, but really, I'm glad that am staying here in Austin. I'll get to reconnect with everyone who I haven't seen in a while, and that's really exciting! Also, my last minute business that I need to finish can be taken care of this week! Yay for finally having time to do stuff!
The song above is from the musical known as 'Spring Awakening. Just FYI, everyone should go and listen to/ watch the performance from the Tony's on youtube. It's freaking awesome, if a little vulgar. Ok, really vulgar. However, it still rocked my face off. Holla!
I need to start making my goals for the fall semester, and so a few of them are going to be listed below:
1. Make a 4.0. I wanted this last semester, and that totally didn't happen. I really need to raise my average, so that I can do my double major in American Studies.
2. I need to see about which groups that I'm going to continue with, and which ones I'm going to retire from. I already have decided a few of them, and I need to cut some of the others down some more. Though I love being involved, it takes a HUGE toll on my GPA. I pulled everything off, but it wasn't easy, and I was very stressed the entire semester.
3. I have American Idol auditions in Dallas on August 6th. I need to be prepared for those. And I need to win them and go to Hollywood. That's a major goal. If anyone has any ideas about which song I should sing, please let me know!!!!
4. I need to have fun, and really enjoy my new roommates, and live life to the fullest!!!
5. Quit analyzing everything with SJ... though that probably shouldn't happen... It just takes away a lot of the joy of movies. However, I REALLY believe in the principles of it, and I am glad that I got involved in the program. Hopefully, I can get rehired again... hint hint to any supervisors who may try to read my blog! :)
I'm really tired and so I'm going to finish writing. So g'night!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
First Post? Alrighty, Then.
So, I'm pretty pumped, because I love blogs. However, I quickly become less and less excited, because of the frequency with which I post blogs. Regardless, this is gonna be fun!
Right now, I'm in the midst of Summer Orientation, where I work as an Orientation Adviser for the University of Texas at Austin, and it's one of the most amazing jobs that I have ever worked at, and I'm not being glib, or just overzealous... it's for serious. This job has helped me to grow so much, and even if I don't get it again next year (cross your fingers, cause I really want to), I will be so thankful for this.
The program is amazing. I believe in the necessity and purpose of it, and I am so grateful for this opportunity. The freshmen this year are awesome so far, and the next year should be amazing.
I wish that I could/would write more, but it's late, and I'm kinda tired. More later, I promise!
Right now, I'm in the midst of Summer Orientation, where I work as an Orientation Adviser for the University of Texas at Austin, and it's one of the most amazing jobs that I have ever worked at, and I'm not being glib, or just overzealous... it's for serious. This job has helped me to grow so much, and even if I don't get it again next year (cross your fingers, cause I really want to), I will be so thankful for this.
The program is amazing. I believe in the necessity and purpose of it, and I am so grateful for this opportunity. The freshmen this year are awesome so far, and the next year should be amazing.
I wish that I could/would write more, but it's late, and I'm kinda tired. More later, I promise!
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