When the Going Gets Tough...

Hey all,

So it's been almost two months since my last post... sorry! I put off posting because I was waiting to hear about a job that I applied for and ended up not getting. What's been happening since? Here's the lowdown:

I applied for a job back home in Wharton, and I didn't get it. sadface.
Texas Football has been underwhelming and breaking my heart. sadface sadface
Submitted my musical for New Works Fest. Didn't get it. Soulcrushing.

Good news: I did get into graduate school at Concordia, and I'll be starting as a Masters of Education student in January! My mom and I are also going on vacation to New York in a few weeks, so that's something I'm looking forward to. It will be good to get a vacation and then start grad school. It sounds weird but this actually helps my bank account, as well! (I know, sounds crazy, but it does!).

Some people might be confused as to why I'm getting a Master's Degree in Education, and it's because this offers me a lot of opportunities. It lets me teach, and it gives me a Degree that I will be very dedicated to and have a chance to get good grades in. A GPA of 4.0 in a Master's is more impressive than a 3.0 in undergrad degrees, right?

Anyway, it's felt like life has kicked my face in the ass lately. Aside from my bills completely overwhelming me, and the rejection from jobs/festivals, I've also just felt pretty alone up in my area. Living far away from campus where most of my friends live secludes me from really being able to hang out with people, and most of my friends are gone at this point. I really may just need to go somewhere new to make new friends, I'm not sure. I'm terrible with social stuff, though, so I doubt it's location so much as just me. I realize more as I get older just how awkward and socially impaired that I am. I love being around people and hanging out with friends, but I think it's just being being around people makes me comfortable. I am terrible at making conversation and always feel like I'm just a big, intruding pile of awkward. But it doesn't matter, I guess. I've always lived and had friends for 'now', and that works for me.

Driver's License Challenge

I realized the other day that my Driver's License is due for renewal in February (I know, I'm old. Womp womp). But as I have been struggling to find a weight loss goal that works for me, I have come up with one! I want to be back to the same weight that I was when I first got my DL in 2004. That will require me to lose 10 pounds a month for the next 4 months. This is completely possible, and doable, and is already been a bit effective. I'm down 3 pounds for sure, and have been going from 3-6 off for the month as of yet. I figure that 2-3 pounds a week is pretty good and on track. If I can do this then I can hopefully start a pattern that will get me to my goal weight of 157. So, if you see me, do not let me drink sodas or eat crazy bad foods. The big thing is not eating foods that don't match nutrition and flavor, as well as not in excess. I don't like wasting food and so now I need to learn to pack stuff up sooner. This is gonna happen, can't wait to see it.

Movie Stuff

I'll say it again- Scott Pilgrim is the best film of 2010 and one of the defining films of my generation.

Also, I saw RED, and it was great! I'll probably have a separate post in the next week for the movies that I've seen since September.


So, I don't think many people read this blog, but if you do, please feel free to leave comments! I'll get back to them as soon as I can.

I'm going to post more, especially with my live becoming more interesting in the next few months. Love y'all!

Brian